Five Vulnerable Things: Vol. 05

How Much Can You Hold?

1. The Ripple Effect of Vulnerability

There’s a clip I’ve watched over and over again — this one — of a kid named Leo standing up in a crowded room to ask actor Michael Sheen a question. He can barely get the words out. His throat catches, his whole body shakes, and for a moment you can feel the tension of everyone in the room holding their breath with him.

Then something shifts. The room softens. Michael meets him with kindness, the crowd cheers, and suddenly Leo’s courage becomes everyone’s permission slip.

That’s the ripple effect of vulnerability.
When we ask the question that scares us, we think we’re doing it for ourselves, but we’re doing it for everyone in the room. The frequency changes when someone tells the truth, even when their voice trembles.

This is the hill I’ll die on. Every single time someone is brave enough to be seen, everyone else becomes braver too.

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2. Be a Hoe in Your Business

One of my clients’ dating life was alive and effortless — playful, flirty, full of magnetism — but when we talked about her business, everything felt heavy.

I told her, with all the love in my heart: Be a hoe in your business.

Be curious. Be unattached. Let it be fun again. We can’t build new dreams with the same old energy that burned us out. Flirt with your purpose. Fall in love with the process again.

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3. Jealousy as a Portal

Someone I used to work with announced a big, high-profile job. It wasn’t even something I wanted, yet I felt that old familiar sting of jealousy. I realized it wasn’t them making me feel small — it was me forgetting to celebrate myself.

Jealousy is just a mirror reflecting where you’ve stopped rejoicing in your own journey. When you bring awareness to that feeling, it transforms. Meditation has taught me that sitting with envy long enough turns it into reverence. Every pang becomes an invitation to remember how far you’ve already come.

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4. Scaling with Depth

This week, one of my clients extended her mentorship with me for a full year. And as I celebrated her, I felt this deep wave of gratitude. Because what I’m building isn’t just about more — it’s about depth.

After years of chasing alignment, I finally feel myself rooted in it. I’m learning that scaling doesn’t always mean going up. Sometimes it means going deeper. More faith, more trust, more intimacy with the work. The more depth I hold, the more capacity I have for everything else — clients, creativity, abundance, stillness. For the infinite.

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5. Holding Humanity

Someone shared a tragic story of an attack, and it instantly brought back a memory of my own suffering. For a moment, that old pain resurfaced — the shock, the fear, the grief — and then I felt something else: tenderness.

Trauma cracks us open to our humanity. It shows us how fragile and miraculous it is to be alive. Maybe the real measure of spiritual growth isn’t how much peace or success we can hold, but how much humanity. How much beauty, pain, jealousy, joy, and awe we can let exist in one heart without closing it.

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Tiny Moments That Anchored Me

• Morning mobility sessions — ten minutes that keep my body soft and grounded.

• I taught two meditation classes just because I missed it.

• I got a floral inquiry I wasn’t ready for, and instead of overextending myself, I reached out and was transparent. I said no, and it was fine. No one died.

• I also realized I don’t actually want to do florals right now. It was a detour that showed me what creative play feels like again — and how freeing it is to let something go with love.

Sometimes holding more isn’t about doing more.
It’s about widening your capacity for truth, courage, and trust.

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Reflection

How much can you hold this week?
And more importantly — how much can you let move through you without needing to control it?