Five Vulnerable Things I Probably Shouldn’t Say Out Loud: Vol. 006
The Karma of Small Things
1. deleting old versions of myself
Factory-resetting two old iPhones and an iPad this week felt like a cleansing I didn’t know my body needed. Sending them in for recycling felt like closing timelines. Every device held a version of me I had outgrown, and wiping them clean felt like wiping emotional residue I didn’t want to carry into the next season of my life. Even with my new iPhone 17 Pro in hand, I turned it into a dumb phone with only the essentials, letting the camera be the one indulgence I keep for my creative work. It felt like clearing psychic space. It felt like choosing who I am now.
2. the leaf that reminds me how fast clarity can shift
While processing flowers this week, I watched a single leaf fall into the bucket. It looked harmless. But hours later, the water changed. The flowers shifted. Everything responded to that one tiny thing. I talked about this in my new podcast episode, how the leaf becomes the symbol for the moment a small thought, memory, or judgment slips into the mind. The clarity doesn’t disappear right away. It dissolves slowly, until suddenly the whole inner landscape feels different. I’m learning to notice the leaf the moment it drops, not three hours later when the water has already turned. That’s the whole practice. Catching the shift early.
3. reclaiming my money story
I’ve been sitting with the truth that most of my beliefs about money were inherited, not chosen. I grew up believing you had to grind, hustle, and prove your worth to make anything happen. Hard work became my identity. Hustle became my personality. But I’m in a season of rewriting all of that. I’m stepping into a money story where my worth is internal, not something validated by paychecks or other people’s decisions. After a lifetime of being undervalued and underpaid, I’m raising my prices and raising my vibration around money. I’m choosing a story where I don’t take less than what I deserve. That’s not a them problem. That’s a me problem. And I’m correcting it.
4. letting surrender hold the morning
Lately I’ve been bookending my days. In the morning, I sit in meditation and open with surrender. Not the dramatic kind. The quiet kind. The kind where I whisper, please take the wheel and show me how good life can get. I release control. I release gripping. I let the day unfold in ways I could never plan. It’s softened me in places I didn’t even know were rigid. And at night, I end in gratitude, letting myself close the day feeling held. If you want to sit with me, I shared a surrender meditation here:
5. strengthening the posture of my heart
All week, I kept coming back to one practice: the posture of my heart. Not the physical chest, but the inner seat. The place where vulnerability rests. I noticed how often I collapse inward without realizing it, how often I brace instead of open, how often I protect instead of trust. The posture of my heart is the real meditation. It’s the axis of my entire life. When it’s open, everything flows. When it’s closed, nothing can reach me. This week was about remembering to sit tall inside myself.
Reflection
Where did something small shift you this week? What leaf fell into your bucket? What version of you are you ready to delete? And where can you soften the posture of your heart just one degree more?